Vertical Climb

I’m not a nihilist;
but everything I do brings be back to 0,0.
In the grand scheme of things,
Every positive I make in one way
Could be made another way;
All roads lead back to home,
And there are many ways of doing the same thing.

I guess Providence wants these things to happen to me
Cause whether I will it so or not
It still happens; Good or Bad.
What will be, will be.
What can I do?
Or should I do anything?

When I entered this world,
This was the start of my grand journey.
I left home without anything
When I return, I won’t have anything either.
Just a bundle of memories--Hey,
I had memories before I left,
But I don’t have memory of that now.
It’s just that sometimes I seem to remember…somehow.

I suppose it depends on how you look at it,
Is it a post hole or a tunnel?
My positives and my negatives
Might as well be negatives and positives,
Because they look like neutrons in my book,
And I don’t care about that science.

I once left for adventure,
But came back the same.
Sure I had experiences,
But they aren’t useable in anything.
--I tell you what, that war that I entered
I wouldn’t speak of to anyone.
But I know that it did happen,
So I suppose it was for me.
That’s how I know I’m still alive, I tell you what!

But the time I had,
Preparing for adventure,
That’s when I learned everything.
That’s when I learn most things really.
When I set my plans,
before it’s all happened,
and not while it’s happening.

The way I see it,
It has come down to this:
Do I enjoy what I have now? Then great.
But if not, I need to learn what I do enjoy about it,
Because everything will keep changing around me
And I’ll keep swimming to stay afloat.
But unless I learn to love swimming,
I’ll be in for a rough life.

Really it’s not the swimming—
I’m always one step ahead of the game.
I keep jumping from falling rock to falling rock
To stay in the air.
Oh, you might say I’m flying.
I can’t look down to see how far I’ve gone.
‘Cause when I do, I’ll miss my step
And forget to leap.
And I’ll fall.

But Lord, it sure feels like I haven’t moved vertically at all!