Dinner Tonight, Enchiladas with Sugar

I see now,
why it has never worked for me.

She's an Enchilada,
and I'm pure Sugar.

We don't mix well,
because I'm too sweet
and she's too hot
and I keep sweetening
when she needs to cool down.

The Prison of Living

I am confined to a life of leisure--
How annoying!
Everything is in order
But I must wait

Try to break out?
You think I haven't tried!
It always comes back to the American Dream
Which makes up the bars of my cell

Free books in the library
Unlimited movies online
Even free Video Games
Occupy my time

But it is hollow and I am empty
I have no one and no one has me
Yet I am free, and what good is it?
I may save and earn and will obtain all in time

What good is a life of this sort?
My hardest debate is, eat in or eat out?
I'm bored wasting away
Lying on the couch eating shit all day

I'm fit 'cause I'm active
And I eat healthy
Yet I do not want this
Can't you see?

marmot

Marmot
Marmot
Sitting
Marmot

To Find You

I would spend money
devote time
persist in the face of the unknown
and tortuous boredom
expose my carefully hidden emotions
for you and the whole world to see
I would go under cover
to rescue you from things
you aren't aware of
I wouldn't shy from awkward scenarios
and would even play the fool
in the world's stage

This is the effort
I commit to you now
and forever
When I find you
Please, don't let me go.

Truth Revisited

In response to the world around me:

I am not afraid of truth
...But because I am not afraid of truth.
I embrace it warmly,
I desire it like a lover,
I cling to it naked in bed.
Which is why
When faced with the truth
I took it; I gobbled it up.
It is a part of me now growing inside.

Do you look truth in the eyes
Like a wild tiger?
Do you grab life by the horns
and let it take you places,
places you've only dreamed of?
Have you painted the earth
with the colors of the wind?
Are you with Braveheart, truly alive?

That part that grows in me is alive,
It changes and grows.

It consumes all but exhausts the bad.
If you feel content with one way
one truth, one faith, one life,
then live that.
But I've lived many lives
and found that this life
is all I've got

So I live by the truth until
I learn
it isn't true anymore
and change.

Hard times/The Egg

I am an egg, that you don't know the insides
A chicken or a crow?A lizard or a dinosaur?
All you see is

I have a hard shell, scratched and banged up.
And all that I see is this shell around me
Yet outside is the world!
And if you wait for me to hatch, you'll see.

It takes hope to care for an egg
But I will follow you where you go
if you help break through these hard times.

A battle of Symbols

It’s a battle of symbols

Where do you fit in?

Are you Lancelot to Guin?

Odysseus to Pen?

Or Don Juan and his trickery?

I don’t know. You're a nobody.

You're just a Knight—

—but Dark? Or White?

A chess piece in The Seventh Seal.

And I believe all of this is real.

Keep me up to date

Let me be part of fate.

Will you take care of me

Are you sworn to me?

I don’t want anyone but you

And I trust you.

But this thing called Karma

It can round kick bite you

Make you feel like you have

 no control

 Over

 Yourself

It can hurt you

Be careful with your actions

You need to have full satisfactions.

And guilt is heavy

It will raise a levy

--All your actions taxed sadly

Your control over yourself would become deadly

I don’t want to see you a zombie

A slave to all your shame about me.

Symbols.

How do I get a handle on all of them?