Am I fine

Am I fine (with people using me?)

I think that's the point
I want to be used
& Exploited, and
utilized in any way possible
but, just as long as it is real;
not robotic,
not like I was just the first or only
person to come around,
and not ungratefully.

I want someone to see my potential
& tap into it, and claim it for their own
& brag about me
& how they got me.

Please, tie me up,

lock me in your tower

Keep me for yourself

I'm yours

--And I'll promise

You'll never

Get bored.

Dinner Tonight, Enchiladas with Sugar

I see now,
why it has never worked for me.

She's an Enchilada,
and I'm pure Sugar.

We don't mix well,
because I'm too sweet
and she's too hot
and I keep sweetening
when she needs to cool down.

The Prison of Living

I am confined to a life of leisure--
How annoying!
Everything is in order
But I must wait

Try to break out?
You think I haven't tried!
It always comes back to the American Dream
Which makes up the bars of my cell

Free books in the library
Unlimited movies online
Even free Video Games
Occupy my time

But it is hollow and I am empty
I have no one and no one has me
Yet I am free, and what good is it?
I may save and earn and will obtain all in time

What good is a life of this sort?
My hardest debate is, eat in or eat out?
I'm bored wasting away
Lying on the couch eating shit all day

I'm fit 'cause I'm active
And I eat healthy
Yet I do not want this
Can't you see?

marmot

Marmot
Marmot
Sitting
Marmot

To Find You

I would spend money
devote time
persist in the face of the unknown
and tortuous boredom
expose my carefully hidden emotions
for you and the whole world to see
I would go under cover
to rescue you from things
you aren't aware of
I wouldn't shy from awkward scenarios
and would even play the fool
in the world's stage

This is the effort
I commit to you now
and forever
When I find you
Please, don't let me go.

Truth Revisited

In response to the world around me:

I am not afraid of truth
...But because I am not afraid of truth.
I embrace it warmly,
I desire it like a lover,
I cling to it naked in bed.
Which is why
When faced with the truth
I took it; I gobbled it up.
It is a part of me now growing inside.

Do you look truth in the eyes
Like a wild tiger?
Do you grab life by the horns
and let it take you places,
places you've only dreamed of?
Have you painted the earth
with the colors of the wind?
Are you with Braveheart, truly alive?

That part that grows in me is alive,
It changes and grows.

It consumes all but exhausts the bad.
If you feel content with one way
one truth, one faith, one life,
then live that.
But I've lived many lives
and found that this life
is all I've got

So I live by the truth until
I learn
it isn't true anymore
and change.

Hard times/The Egg

I am an egg, that you don't know the insides
A chicken or a crow?A lizard or a dinosaur?
All you see is

I have a hard shell, scratched and banged up.
And all that I see is this shell around me
Yet outside is the world!
And if you wait for me to hatch, you'll see.

It takes hope to care for an egg
But I will follow you where you go
if you help break through these hard times.