As time went on

As time went on

We left the establishment
I held the door
She looked at me
but didn't say anymore.




Silence


I asked the questions
the generic and bland
when it came time to depart
I didn't even extend my hand.

"I'll see you around."
But I really won't
I wish I could say I'd want to
but I really don't.

DayBreak

Daybreak

The white lake.
Sandy beaches, a cool breeze,
and everything is the same throughout--
--except for the houses,
they're shades of pastel blue,
green, white and grey, just not brown or black.

So mediocre!
They named the place Oqurrih.

The drama is here though.
Behind the smiles of walking
couples. The mothers pushing
strollers, and the joggers with
ear buds.

They're trapped in this world;
forced to maintain an image,
conform and keep up.
What secrets do they hide,
One wonders?

Am I fine

Am I fine (with people using me?)

I think that's the point
I want to be used
& Exploited, and
utilized in any way possible
but, just as long as it is real;
not robotic,
not like I was just the first or only
person to come around,
and not ungratefully.

I want someone to see my potential
& tap into it, and claim it for their own
& brag about me
& how they got me.

Please, tie me up,

lock me in your tower

Keep me for yourself

I'm yours

--And I'll promise

You'll never

Get bored.

Dinner Tonight, Enchiladas with Sugar

I see now,
why it has never worked for me.

She's an Enchilada,
and I'm pure Sugar.

We don't mix well,
because I'm too sweet
and she's too hot
and I keep sweetening
when she needs to cool down.

The Prison of Living

I am confined to a life of leisure--
How annoying!
Everything is in order
But I must wait

Try to break out?
You think I haven't tried!
It always comes back to the American Dream
Which makes up the bars of my cell

Free books in the library
Unlimited movies online
Even free Video Games
Occupy my time

But it is hollow and I am empty
I have no one and no one has me
Yet I am free, and what good is it?
I may save and earn and will obtain all in time

What good is a life of this sort?
My hardest debate is, eat in or eat out?
I'm bored wasting away
Lying on the couch eating shit all day

I'm fit 'cause I'm active
And I eat healthy
Yet I do not want this
Can't you see?

marmot

Marmot
Marmot
Sitting
Marmot

To Find You

I would spend money
devote time
persist in the face of the unknown
and tortuous boredom
expose my carefully hidden emotions
for you and the whole world to see
I would go under cover
to rescue you from things
you aren't aware of
I wouldn't shy from awkward scenarios
and would even play the fool
in the world's stage

This is the effort
I commit to you now
and forever
When I find you
Please, don't let me go.